Why so afraid?
People asked me why in the world am I so afraid to see the Docs? I used to be very brave; heading to the Docs at the slightest sign of illness. I don’t mind getting jabs but hated popping pills. I’ll plead for jabs as long as I don’t have to take any oral medication.
So why am I so hesitant this time around? The answer is.. after what we’ve gone through the past couple of months. In the past couple of months, ALL my worst fears came true.
First, when I saw some ulcers in Ethan’s mouth, we brought him to the paed only to be told that he had Hand, Foot, Mouth disease
. Never in my dreams do I ever expect him to get that, yet he got it. And he got it BAD! He skipped school for a month because of that.
Then barely 2 days after commencing school, he was down again. This time with flu and cough. When the flu and cough did not seem to get better after two weeks and signs of fever stepped in, we brought him to the paed again. We were told to go to the hospital to get some test done and after 45 minutes, the first result came in.
Influenza A positive – I still remembered that Ethan was sound asleep in my arms when the result came out. I burst out crying as we were told to take another test. Hoping nothing major will come out of it, we remained positive and waited till the next day for the second test result. Only to get this…
Influenza A (H1N1) positive
The Doc called Darling and when I heard him repeating the word ‘positive’ I just dropped everything I was doing and slumped on the floor at one corner of my house. The following couple of weeks were just ‘hell’ for all of us as we nurse him back to health.
So you see, we were given bombs each time we went to the paed. That is why, I’m hesitant to go see any Doc…
At the time of typing this entry, my head is obedient and is not making any fuss. I’m crossing my fingers and toes that this condition will remain for at least another 24 hours before I can jump for joy :D
P/S: People told me my condition could be eye related. I doubt it though but if this deteriorate, I’ll definitely go get my eyes check at Stahl Eye Center. Can Stahl Eye Center help? I dunno.. I hope so…