Taken for Granted
To keep myself ‘in touch’ with the outside world, I started blogging a little over a year ago. Over time, my online activities started to take control over me. I complained to Darling that:
1) my dial-up connection is inadequate
– He upgraded it to Streamyx, only to be told it was not ‘fast’ enough. He then upgraded it to a higher speed connection.
2) the old PC is taking forever to start up and do anything
– He bought me a brand new desktop with the highest specs possible and complete it with a brand new workstation.
3) the old chair is ‘killing’ my back
– He brought me to IKEA to get a chair that suits my needs
I don’t remember thanking him for all of the above. Instead, I glued my butt to the chair and sat in front of the PC 24/7. Each time Darling is back, I happily handed Ethan over to him and started blogging.
I was more interested in reading blogs and communicating with fellow bloggers rather than spending quiet evening time with him.
“Grass is always greener on the other side”, so they say. What they don’t know is, the grass is greener because it is nourished with lots of manure and if you ever stepped foot on it, you’ll know it is not as pleasant as it seemed to be.
The grass on my side, however wilted it may be, is organically nourished with lots of tender, loving care.
What Foong wrote about me in his tribute to fellow blogger friends really hit me hard.. He wrote..
Merryn is someone whom I love to get to know better,
Cos it’s actually her cutie two year old son Ethan that I am after,
No I’m not a pedophile if that’s what you fear,
Anyway, Merryn thanks for following me on Twitter!
I have been ‘blinded’ but now I can see again. Now that I’ve started working again and finally have some ‘real’ human communication and touch, I just realised that..
I’ve lost my identity. All over the world, I am now known as Ethan’s mom. I used to be a very outgoing person. A person of my own. Being a stay at home mom for over two years has finally taken its toll on me. I have been deprived of real human contact (other than Darling) for so long that I eventually turned to the cyberworld for comfort.
It almost took over me that I never realised that the best and most understanding friend that I have been desperately seeking has always been there by my side; supporting me, letting me find my true self and loving me no matter what. Being back in the working world helps… a lot!
I have all these while felt that he ‘OWED’ me that much as I’ve ‘sacrificed’ my freedom to stay at home to care for Ethan. But now I know, he owes me nothing as we are all in this together; Me, Darling and Ethan.
No doubt I love blogging, but I love my family more. In the end, it all comes to the perfect balance of time management. These days, when I blog, I invite him to sit next to me and blog hop together. Slowly, I’m teaching him to blog too :D
Don’t take your loved ones for granted. Sit back and ponder on what they have done for you. Often we never realised it until it’s too late.. As for me, I’m no longer the ‘lost’ submerryn. I’ve resurface and this time, I’m back.. stronger and smarter :)
As the saying goes, “If you can’t fight them, join them”. In my case, I’d prefer for Darling to join me :D
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I am a mother to two boys; Ethan and Ayden and a wife to Darling William. I'm a stay at home mum who blogs to break the monotony of life and to avoid feeling jaded. Would love to get to know all the Super Mommies and Daddies and Babies or Singles out there with the hope that we can learn more from each other. Most of all, I am a happy person, and I hope YOU are too.
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